my shadow fades away
now i see droplets of tears
as the crystal pavement waves
i continue to walk
till the end of my path

it's been almost a month after the play
and life isn't the same without it
but i have to live with it
so many things have changed after the play
not just for me but for every individual who participated
as for me..
life is great

To. Samuel, Aristocrat, Elisa and Joey may you guys rest in peace
you gave us comfort and you guys sparked up our lives in a way
we know that your in hamster heaven right now
we will never forget you..

you know the feeling of getting high
it's like your bodies about to burst
your feet looking for a direction
hands blurry through your eyes
and you feel your heart growing and beating twice as fast

anyways, i've been feeling high even without the use of any organic substance
it's a kind of high wherein you just want to flood the world with tears
it's a high where everything goes pitch black
and it's a different high that nothing can go wrong

one way...
a word i've been hearing for over 3 months
a script which was once in my head

Oh happy day
When the grass is blue
And the birds are mute

another year
another number
damn i feel old.

It has been over a year since i sat down and gave thought about what to put in my blog. I've been dry with words coming out of my mouth. My mind has been drained from all it's veins. Some of my dreams have been shattered while i sleep. And I don't know..i kinda lost the momentum of blogging and writing what i felt. You know when you get lost in the moment and just don't realize stuff anymore. When you lose all emotions and you breakdown into tears or when you think too much and everything goes crazy in your head. Well, that's how i feel now. That's why i stopped blogging for awhile. But now i'm gonna try to start again and gather my thoughts and fix my emotions. As of now i am happy. And i hope to stay that way...

a pictureless frame
an uncovered journal
a dislocated upper lip
a weird jointed finger
a burned eyebrow
a static beer bellie
a nailbitting freak
an undecided dreamer
an artistic pessimist
a sadistic director
a back stabbing retard
an over sleeper

you have always doubted me

Tale of the Stones

two stones joined me in my journey
one was strong but the other was weak
the weak stone crashed and broke
and the strong one stayed with me
we walked and battled side by side
but in the end i walked alone.

did i disappoint you
or make you cry
forbidden thoughts
startle me into remembrance
but only for a moment

i am a dreamer
and when i wake
it's my dreams you take
but dreams will linger
like a dreamer's fairytale
and it will haunt me strangely

i'm dying inside..

this feeling inside is different
should i do it or not
should i risk it or not
should i stop thinking too much
and just move and bounce to the beat.

an apple with no worms
a bunch of kids not high on sweets
a pencil with no eraser
a laptop with no keyboards

a fresh start
a new beginning
a new year

recovering from a battered feeding
stuffing themselves with glorious treats
after that leaving us with nothing but scrap
all i wanna do now is kill the PIGS!

trying to fight the feeling
of bursting out into tears
never have i felt this way
never have i been like this.

will i ever turn back
will i ever doubt myself again
thoughts tend to thicken in my head
awaiting to pour out

time will tell
so help me GOD
in everyday
i pray

i'm too freaking lazy to write
maybe when the moment comes.

then for a moment i procrastinate
in that instance everything is clear
and now i'm rising up from the ashes.

BLACK (Red, Yellow, Orange) Rest in Peace

For 11 long years it has served me
it has been there for me through my troubled days
it was there during all my adventures
it has past through fire and water
it has past through rock and sand
and sometimes heaven and hell too.

It has made me the person i am today
without it i am nothing
it gave me comfort and love
it gave me support and everlasting protection
it gave me everything a man wants
but now i just have to let it go..

So, i bid farewell.

R.I.P "Laguna Shorts"