Everything has an ending
Everyone has a goal
Every little decision we make we have to live with it
It's just we have to balance our lives
for the betterment of our future.

Evening Delight Mode

Wasted time.
I cannot say that I was ready for this.
But when worlds collide,
and all that I have is all that I want.
The words seem to flow
and the thoughts they keep running.
And all that I have is yours.
All that I am is yours.
Ohh...
Painted skies.
I've seen so many that cannot compare
to your ocean eyes.
The pictures you took
that cover your room,
and it was just like the sun
but more like the moon.
A light that can reach it all.
So now I'm branded for taking the fall.
Ohh...
So when you say forever,
can't you see
you've already captured me.

-Mae-

Soundtrack of our movie

I started to ache when I started to think of you.
Wondering how long it would take before I step into something new.
There's so much I can fake.
There's only so much that I can prove.
Well, do it in a minute,
I could go play the fool for you.

Lights, camera, action.
I think I'm going for it this time.
There's something you should listen to.
Could I take you for a car ride?
This is the soundtrack for our movie.
Would you tell me when we get to the best part?
I'll play it for you.
Oh no, I think I've lost this one.
Can we try again?

Well I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it but I,
I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.

Are you looking for an answer?
Because I could really use a friend tonight.
We can make this last forever.
We don't have to fear the sunlight.

I'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment.
Well, I'm in deep whenever I'm with you.
I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever.
Well, I'm so in love with...


- Mae -

oh yah, i'm HAPPY!

my shadow fades away
now i see droplets of tears
as the crystal pavement waves
i continue to walk
till the end of my path

it's been almost a month after the play
and life isn't the same without it
but i have to live with it
so many things have changed after the play
not just for me but for every individual who participated
as for me..
life is great

To. Samuel, Aristocrat, Elisa and Joey may you guys rest in peace
you gave us comfort and you guys sparked up our lives in a way
we know that your in hamster heaven right now
we will never forget you..

you know the feeling of getting high
it's like your bodies about to burst
your feet looking for a direction
hands blurry through your eyes
and you feel your heart growing and beating twice as fast

anyways, i've been feeling high even without the use of any organic substance
it's a kind of high wherein you just want to flood the world with tears
it's a high where everything goes pitch black
and it's a different high that nothing can go wrong

one way...
a word i've been hearing for over 3 months
a script which was once in my head

Oh happy day
When the grass is blue
And the birds are mute

another year
another number
damn i feel old.

It has been over a year since i sat down and gave thought about what to put in my blog. I've been dry with words coming out of my mouth. My mind has been drained from all it's veins. Some of my dreams have been shattered while i sleep. And I don't know..i kinda lost the momentum of blogging and writing what i felt. You know when you get lost in the moment and just don't realize stuff anymore. When you lose all emotions and you breakdown into tears or when you think too much and everything goes crazy in your head. Well, that's how i feel now. That's why i stopped blogging for awhile. But now i'm gonna try to start again and gather my thoughts and fix my emotions. As of now i am happy. And i hope to stay that way...

a pictureless frame
an uncovered journal
a dislocated upper lip
a weird jointed finger
a burned eyebrow
a static beer bellie
a nailbitting freak
an undecided dreamer
an artistic pessimist
a sadistic director
a back stabbing retard
an over sleeper

you have always doubted me

Tale of the Stones

two stones joined me in my journey
one was strong but the other was weak
the weak stone crashed and broke
and the strong one stayed with me
we walked and battled side by side
but in the end i walked alone.

did i disappoint you
or make you cry
forbidden thoughts
startle me into remembrance
but only for a moment

i am a dreamer
and when i wake
it's my dreams you take
but dreams will linger
like a dreamer's fairytale
and it will haunt me strangely

i'm dying inside..

this feeling inside is different
should i do it or not
should i risk it or not
should i stop thinking too much
and just move and bounce to the beat.

an apple with no worms
a bunch of kids not high on sweets
a pencil with no eraser
a laptop with no keyboards

a fresh start
a new beginning
a new year