for many years..
together we face our fears
and i hope this year..
my pride does not get the best of me

Life is but an empty dream

falling apart

i look for an empty space
and hide in darkness
waiting for them to address me
waiting for them to call my name
while i wait i shiver with fear
my heart pumps rapidly
i drown in tears
and i brake out being some else
all i can do is pray.

i wait in tears for the candles to light up
remembering the years
making up for the past
wishing you were here to celebrate with us
even if you can't hear our voices, our laughs
our cheers, and feel our comfort
always remember your presence is still here.

Free the world and let them know it's Christmas

My pride ruins everything.

The young man knows the rules...but the old man knows the exceptions.

"Beauty Fades. Dumb is Forever."

once again i'm losing faith
once again i'm doubting everything
once again i'm facing a wall
hoping that it will pass
and asking myself
when will this story end
are things gonna change
just like the ashes of the past.

my body pauses for a moment
trying to gather all the thoughts
floating in my head
thinking of what to do next
planning my next move
then i inhale death allowing it to calm my emotions down
and for an instance my feelings fade

Above us now the final rays of the sun before
the fall of night were raised to such a height
that we could see the stars on every side.

And so i was drawn from random thought
wandering in mind, I shut my eyes
transforming thought on thought to dream.

I wanna die when the sun rises
7 days a week i think of death
Waiting for my shadow to fade away
And expecting my day to end
When that day comes
The sun will shine to cast away my shadow.

I have learned..

I've learned that no matter
what happens, or how bad it seems today, life
does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a
person by the way he/she handles these three
things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled
Christmas tree lights.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship
with your parents, you'll miss them when they're
gone from your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the
same thing as making a "life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's
mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you.
But if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others,
your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you.

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart,
I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love that human touch - holding hands, a warm hug, or just
a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

I've learned to love God once again.

I've learned to love my family and friends more.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will
forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made
them feel.

From the back of my head

i was about to cry
but my wasted heart didnt allow it
i should have done something
all i did was waste my time
i assume i dont fully understand
and i need to listen
the feeling that lies in me are just thoughts
for now just let me say
without any agenda
always hopeless romantic
to me your perfect
and my dying heart will love you.

Thanks for nothing.
You didnt even bother to apologize.
It kinda hurts but i'll get over it.
I just hope you realize how much i care for you.
And not take me for granted.

I felt death..it was nothing much
I just want to beat myself to sleep tonight
I wanna fly away while the clouds cry
And after that i won"t be alone anymore.....

One wish changes nothing. One decision changes everything

I dreamed of dancing with you.
Holding you tight, looking at you straight in the eye
And tell you "I wish this never ends"
Then i wake...
Thinking of the way you make me high
It just makes the world go round
I hope for love to save me in this twisted life of mine.

Realizing..

After my brother left every responsibility was passed down to me.
And it's hard. it's hard being the eldest.
It's like smoking a broken cigarette. (Figure it out)
The first day on the job i wanted to quit but i told myself "If he can do it, so can I" And also i wanted to prove to my parents that im different from him.
For the past week i've been emotionally drained because of my brother.
I never had a chance to bound with him and try to renovate our problems.
But i really miss him. Life without him is unconventional.
Life for me is a shadow without him.
I realized that Life is Beautiful. Love is insane. Brotherhood is everlasting.

A Bit Longer..

All I wanted was the chance to say
I would like to see you in the morning
Rolling over just to have you there
Would make it easy for a little bit longer
But here
Closer every year
So near
The fear is coming clear
My dear
The fear is here
Getting up this morning
And so all the trees forgot to wake
They were dropping all their leaves
on the ground below them
Make it easy for a little bit longer..

Just wondering

Shinning through my eyes.
trying to listen
but im bothered by the thoughts floating in my head
i wished i could set myself free
i wished i dreamed of happy thoughts
my dreams are never pleasant
i wish dreams could be realities
i just wish...

Results: "What elemental dragon are you?"

You are an earth Dragon! You have a knack for Nature or animals, and are peaceful, careful, chariming, and optimistic. You can throw a tantrum now or then, but who doesnt? You value simple things in life, such as friends, familly, and Nature.

To Miguel

Yeah
All my life
Uh-huh
Ooh, yeah, yeah
Why?

All of my life, I've been searching
For the words to say how I feel (how I feel)
I'd spend my time thinking too much (yeah, yeah)
And leave too little to say what I mean
But I tried to understand the best I can
All of my life (yeah, yeah, yeah)

All of my life, I've been saying sorry (sorry, sorry)
For the things I know I should have done (done)
All the things I could have said come back to me
Sometimes I wish that it could just be gone (I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish)
Seems I'm always that little too late
All of my life (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)


Said enough, I'll take a drink with you
Pull up a chair, I think I'll stay
Said enough, cos I'm going nowhere
There's too much I need to remember
There's too much I need to say

All of my life, I've been looking (looking)
But it's so hard to find the way (find a way)
Just reaching past the goal in front of me
While what's important just slips away (every day)
And it doesn't come back but I'll be looking
All of my life.

Listen to me now
Listen to me now
Listen now...

Said enough, I'll take a drink with you
Pull up a chair, I think I'll stay
Said enough, cos I'm going nowhere
There's too much I need to remember (I need, I need to remember baby)
There's too much I need to say (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
All of my life
All of my life

Check it out now, now

All of my life there have been regrets
That I didn't do what I could
Play station upstairs, while you watched TV
Said I didn't spend the time I should
And that's a memory I'm gonna live with
All of my life

All of my life.
All of my life.
Ooh, yeah
Yeah
All of my life.
All of my life...

From: Anonymous

You deserve the best..

You will get only what you want
Sometimes the world seems cold.
There are moments when you try your best,
and even that isn't good enough.
You yearn for the best life has to offer,
but you wonder if it will ever appear.

but you have to keep believing...
you have to remember
that things will get better,
that you will find strength,
and you have to believe in yourself...
the way that I believe in you.

Results: "How horny are you?"

If It Comes, Your So happy, its such a privelge to make love to someone you Love, Your Horny only because you need to feel that emotion called Love. Your 40-50% Horny

So Long

Yes I heard all that you had to say
That's when it all fell apart
Might be hated, but I can't pretend
I liked you better before
So long, so long, front foot leads the back one
Go on and it won't be too soon
I'm gone, I'm gone and on to the next one
So long, and I won't be back soon
Yes I'm blue, but from holding my breath
Like I have from the start
I'm the villain and I should confess
I liked you better before
So long, so long and on to the next one
Go on and it won't be too soon
I'm gone, I'm gone, bet you saw this one comin?
So long and I won't be back soon
It's hateful to say, see it this way
Don't even know who you are
But in my defense I'd do it again
I don't need to know who you are
So long, so long and on to the next one
Go on and it won't be too soon
You're gone, you're gone, are you waiting for somethin?
Go on cause I won't be back soon
It's hateful to say, see it this way
Don't even know who you are
But in my defense I'd do it again
I don't need to know who you are
So long, so long, front foot leads the back one
Go on and it won't be too soon
You're lost and gone and on to the next one
Don't need to know who you are
Don't need to know who you are

IF

If i could be with you forever
then life would be easier
i know that your soul searching
i am too
but if only you could see what i see
if only you could feel what i feel
i hope that your expectations change
well, time will tell
and God only knows...
And as of now all i can do is hope and dream.

Life.

A man conceived a moment's answers to the dream.
Staying the flowers daily, sensing all the themes.
As a foundation left to create the spiral aim,
A movement regained and regarded both the same,
All complete in the sight of seeds of life with you.
Changed only for a sight of sound, the space agreed.
Between the picture of time behind the face of need,
Coming quickly to terms of all expression laid,
Emotion revealed as the ocean maid,
All complete in the sight of seeds of life with you.
Never know their fruitless worth;
all the mornings of the interest shown,
presenting one another to the cord.
All left dying, rediscovered
Of the door that turned round,
Locked inside.
To close the cover.
Watching the world, watching all of the world,
Watching us go by.
And you and I climb over the sea to the valley,
And you and I reached out for reasons to call.

It won't be the same..

I said goodbye to my brother
I made him go
Cause it's time
Was never supposed to be like this
I was too weak so i had to break
Tears are about to start again

So i go on
And try to make things better
I've wasted every moment
And the boredom kills me

Like our father said
It won't be hard to start again
And you're gone now
And it didnt make me happier
But i finally got it figured out
So, go on and get going
I'm fine on my own

But just promise me
That you'll be back
Because it won't be the same.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are
Far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds they fly
Over the rainbow,
Why then, oh why can't I...

My Results: what kind of kisser are you?

antonio manuel,you're a Romantic Kisser

Whew, is it warm in here or is that just you? When it comes to kissing, you get your drive from the lure of romance. For you, it's more than a meeting of the lips. You appreciate kissing for the rush and for what it symbolizes. Long-stemmed roses, candlelight dinners, and weekend retreats to bed and breakfasts. Sound about your speed?

You're a kissing partner who can go beyond the sweet surrender of locking lips to discuss the meaning of relationships. To really express yourself, you're probably one who's concerned with setting the proper mood. You might light a fire or take your date to a beautiful lookout before cuddling and kissing. You probably like to make a lot of eye contact, gently hug and touch your date, and talk tenderly about your feelings.

While your intensions are pure, your intensity might sometimes be a little overwhelming. Don't forget that being playful can also be a sign of affection, and remember, sometimes a kiss is just a kiss.

Thoughts

Walking through the valley of death
i see faces that bring back memories
broken and has gone back to their creator
life isn't the same with a gun in my hand
a hole in my heart and a spotless mind
demons running like crazy through my head
i'm thinking of what to do..
and i raised my hand then looked up at the heaven's above
and i fall into darkness
with my soul burning.

My Results

Sober Rational Destructive Follower

You are cool, analytical, intelligent and completely unfunny. Sometimes you slice through conversation with a cutting observation that causes silence and sidelong glances. You make a strong and lasting impression on everyone you meet, the quality of which depends more on their personality than yours.

You may feel persecuted, as you can become a target for fun. Still, you are focused enough on your work and secure enough in your abilities not to worry overly.

You are productive and invaluable to those you work for. You are loyal, steadfast, and conscientious. Your grooming is impeccable. You are in good shape.

You are kind of a tool, but you get things done. You are probably a week away from snapping.

Confession is what i need
will God forgive me?
Father i am at your feet
knealing to you
begging for forgiveness
i'll change to who i used to be

if only you could see the tears in my eyes
i'm losing my faith in everthing
but i still dream a thousand dreams
besides wasting my time

Goodmorning Sunshine

i wake freezing from the cold breeze
the only thing i can think of is you
getting ready for a new day
watching you rise above everything else
and i shed a tear
a sign of happiness

watching you set once again
darkness covers the heavens above
then you wait to begin rise again.